Life without hips

7 03 2009

Yes, I had read all about the fat redistribution that happens with testosterone treatment. I thought I was prepared for it but YIKES! My main gripe lately (always with a chuckle and tongue in cheek) has been: “No one warned me about how hard it is to live without hips!!”

I used to use them as a sort of shelf to help me carry things. No more. Last time I tried, a few months ago, the box just slid down. Now I get why men carry boxes by holding them up on one shoulder. It’s not macho, it’s just the only shelf they got!

And PANTS! Sheesh. Makes me wonder why, traditionally, men have been the ones wearing pants. Even with a tight belt, I have to pull up my jeans CONSTANTLY. Of course, it doesn’t help that I wear binders made of sleek material that probably enables the sliding even more but still . . . I’m thinking of making a bold fashion move and bringing suspenders back in style! Not slung down under the hips like my butch brethren either, but actually in functional mode!

Oh well. I always like to look on the bright side of life so . . . on a final note . . . it sure as HELL beats having periods. 😀

Quick New Year Update

17 01 2009

I’ve been a very bad blogger. December is always hectic with end-of-term stuff then the break happened. Yeah, I had a bit more time but laziness overwhelmed me so I did more Buffy the Vampire Slayer watching and spent way less time in front of the PC.

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Taking a plunge

12 11 2008

OK, so quite a few trans folk have been showing their faces on their blogs. I hesitated for a long time. One of the reasons was that I was worried that a student would accidentally stumble across my blog and put 2 and 2 together. You know what? I don’t care anymore. At this point, I’m pretty sure that several students know, just because my occasional ventures to the campus this semester (I’m on leave) have consisted of quite a few encounters with confused looking students. Also, I’ve given guest presentations to students that have had me in the past as a teacher – as a woman. And I was now introduced as male so . . .

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5 months on testosterone

26 10 2008

So, today, October 26, I’ve been on testosterone for exactly 5 months. Unbelievable. It seems like only yesterday that I was on the internet looking for a psychologist, thinking that it would be at least another year before I started hormone treatment. That was in December 2007. So here is a list of observed changes, physical and other:

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New Hair!

20 07 2008

OK, so I just noticed that I have a line of fine hairs growing on my belly, starting about 2 inches below my sternum and reaching all the way down to my belly button. The line of hair that already existed between my belly button and my pubic hair is a tad thicker than it was. Seeing this, I got curious about my chest. I took a careful look and, lo and behold, there are a few fine hairs *just* starting to grow smack in the middle of my chest. Woohoo! This testosterone stuff works wonders!

Thoughts on Menstruation

20 07 2008

On June 6, the day before my transition party, I began my first post-testosterone period. I found it very ironic that I should be on the rag for a party celebrating my transition from female-to-male. I figured I would have 1-2 more periods after that. About two weeks ago, I started the familiar PMS. First, I had a sore throat (I know, weird, but that’s been going on for about a year.) Then cramping and vaginal dryness (TMI?). Then moodiness. But then . . . no period! I’m still waiting with baited breath in case it’s just late. But it’s quite possible that my first post-T period was my last. Time will tell.

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Temporary Hiatus

19 07 2008

I just realised I haven’t posted anything in nearly a month. I’m on vacation for the summer and have been feeling extra lazy when it comes to writing. I will soon be starting a PhD and I will be spending so much time writing that I guess I needed a little break. I also don’t tend to spend too much time in front of the PC in the summer, preferring to be outdoors playing with my little guy and reading fiction.

I have a few thoughtful posts in mind on issues ranging from feminism to drag. In the meantime, here are a few updates:

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12 06 2008

OK. So for some reason, I haven’t felt like blogging about my testosterone injections. The morning that i went to go get my first injection, I thought: “Yeah, tonight, I’m going to write about my whole experience, down to the last detail, and bla bla bla.” But after all that, I just didn’t feel like writing. I will write a post on the near future about my first shot: the experiential process of getting there with my friend, what was going on through my mind, etc. But not now.

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