OK. So for some reason, I haven’t felt like blogging about my testosterone injections. The morning that i went to go get my first injection, I thought: “Yeah, tonight, I’m going to write about my whole experience, down to the last detail, and bla bla bla.” But after all that, I just didn’t feel like writing. I will write a post on the near future about my first shot: the experiential process of getting there with my friend, what was going on through my mind, etc. But not now.
Right now, I’m just amazed that I’m already seeing changes. They are subtle and at first I thought I must be imagining things. After all, I’m only had three weekly injections and I thought that the effects took longer. But according to some trans guys that I know, it depends on the ability of one’s body to absorb the testo. The nurse had told me that, often, people get redness at the injection site and this signifies that the body is having a hard time absorbing. I have not had that so it looks like it’s going well.
ANYWAY: here are some changes I’ve noticed. At the end of the first week, I felt this weird feeling in my throat, where the vocal chords are. Not pain but just this weird sensation. And over the course of the week that followed, I found that I was more frequenly and more easily slipping into the lower end of my vocal range. My voice isn’t deeper but it’s slipping down and, although I’m still able to go back to my traditional soft and high voice, I have to force it. It’s a weird feeling but fun. The past couple of days, I’ve been sounding like I have a cold. Now I have to rush and get a mic for my computer: I need to record myself singing some girl songs pronto before I lose it!! I also have to record some lullabies for my son.
Now, another subtle change is the hair on my legs. It seems to be denser, especially down near the ankles, and it turns up away from the skin whereas it used to grow flat against the skin. I also have more hair than I had high up on my upper thinhs, near the groin.
Finally, the sex drive. I’ve always had a high one and now it’s just plain getting scary. But it’s different. My past sex drive was mentally driven. I just always thought about sex and that made me physically horny. I would fantasise and then get aroused. Often at inappropriate times when I couldn’t do anything about it. Now, it’s the reverse. I feel physically aroused and THEN I think about sex. So, I wouldn’t say that I’m hornier if being horny simply means that one is highly sex-driven. However, the source of my horniness is VERY different.